Am I Embarrassed By This Blog? | Life Update

September 18, 2017

So I wanted to share this post, and it is definitely a bit of an open one, as I am not really used to sharing about myself in this way.
Also please note that I really struggle with the spelling of "embarrassing" but I am doing my best to spell it correctly throughout this post. And beware of some grainy, bad quality images.



Recently, I was talking to a friend and they mentioned that they read my blog and that they liked it. I immediately cringed and the way I responded, in hindsight, shocks me and confuses me. Although I advertise my blog on my social media, it feels awkward and weird when it gets brought up in conversation. Since then, I have really been questioning myself about why that is.


If someone asked me if I was ashamed of my blog, I definitely wouldn't say "yes". I have done so much with this blog, I have gained a following, I have written over 200 posts. But deep down, I think I have had some insecurities. I think that I got caught up in comparing things. "I don't have as much comments as Blog X", or "I don't have as many followers as Blog Y" definitely became my mindset.


I know that I have a major weakness in comparing myself and I need to remind myself how far I have come. Some of these grainy photos were from posts that I did one or two years ago. Nowadays, my photography is not near that standard. I've gone from 0 followers to a following of over 100. I have put time and effort into this blog, I learned HTML (to an extent), I have done so much to make it something to be proud of.

I am not trying to boast, or show off. Through this post, I think I am trying to remind myself to be proud of this blog, that to have persevered for the past four years is truly awesome. I might not be the best blogger, but I have worked hard. And I shouldn't be ashamed.

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10 comments

  1. Interesting read. I think many people will relate to what your feeling. I don't think its shame, I think its vulnerability. When you put yourself out there in a public forum you open yourself up to not only praise but also criticism. And we all know how cruel social media can be. So I agree, you should be proud of yourself. And keep at it. You're probably much closer to your aspirations than you think ;)

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  2. You really shouldn't feel ashamed! I think your blog is lovely. I understand you though, I kept mine a secret and so didn't have people talk to me about it but I would have been ashamed a year ago if people found out. But there's absolutely nothing to be ashamed about if you're doing something you enjoy!

    Sophie xx // One Unique

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  3. I feel the same! Only a few people know about my blog and it's scary thinking more might find it! xx Keep doing what you love! xx

    https://harryssisters.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. Thank you! It is good to know that other people feel the same.

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  4. I completely understand what you mean. Only a few of my friends know about my blog and I always try and make a joke out of it when it's mentioned. I don't think that i'm ashamed though, I just don't want to put myself into a place of exposure of vulnerability! I hope you're having a good day xox

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    1. Thank you for your comment! I definitely try and make light out of my blog when it comes up as a topic of discussion. Even if it is a sad, serious post, I feel like my blogging life and social life are two opposite ends of a spectrum that shouldn't meet.
      Thanks, I hope that you have had a great day too!

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  5. Your blog is so amazing! You shouldn't feel any type of shame as you have worked so hard and it is reflected in the quality of your blog . I am so proud of you ! x

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