It's Been A While... Lacking Motivation, Exams, Feeling Lost | Life Update

August 21, 2017

This post is one that I have planning to write for a really long time, if I am honest. My nature of procrastinating things has made this unnecessarily hard and prolonged. I am sorry that you only get to hear from me now, after all this time, especially if you have been waiting for a post to come out here.


I have addressed this briefly on my Instagram, but honestly, I played down what I was feeling in that post a lot. I didn't feel happy, and I knew that I needed to share that with you guys, but I didn't want to truly be vulnerable and open.

This feeling of inadequacy has been bothering me for a really long time, but I continued to put out posts and photos as if everything was okay, but it wasn't. I felt like nothing I was doing was original or important, that no one was taking any notice. Like I wasn't really enough. And that is hard. Really hard, both to deal with and to overcome. I felt like I was doing something wrong, that I have been blogging now for 4 years and people with blogs for 2 or 3 months are more developed, more popular and better than me.


When it came to exam season, I chose to take a break, to focus on my education, and think up something new and original. I want to create content that makes me happy, makes my subscribers happy. I just wish I knew what that was. While doing my exams, I felt like all my ideas were done before, and I just lacked the motivation to write because of that.

Now it is well past exam season, but I haven't posted because I didn't know what to say. I felt awkward about sharing that I didn't have any motivation, as if it was something to be ashamed of. 

I want you all to know, that if you are feeling inadequate or have low self-esteem, that you aren't alone, and that you don't have to go through it by yourself. Feel free to dm me on Instagram or Twitter, or email me. Or just talk to someone. A friend, a family member. Anyone.

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Not everyone who reads my blog is religious, I know, but I find great comfort in the fact that God thinks I am important, that He loves me, and that I am valued by Him, even when I don't feel like it.

In terms of the future of this blog, I don't really know what will be happening. I will be posting, but not as often, until I figure out what I want to do. I want to share content that all of us can enjoy, whether it is original or different or what.


As my readers, I would love to get some insight into what you want to see. Please comment below any suggestions that you have.


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8 comments

  1. I really feel you. This was written beautifully and really helped me realise I'm not the only one who feels un original and boring in the blogging world. Some days I have brilliant, new ideas. Yet others, the same old trash comes rolling out. As a Christian I also relate to remembering the fact that Jesus saved me and loved me, no matter how un-important I think I am.

    Abby x www.teenagehomedder.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you for sharing Abby. Its in someways good to know that I am not alone when I feel inadequate, but I'm still sorry that you have those feelings. God is a real optimist in my life, without him I don't know where I would be.
      Rachel x

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  2. I completely understand this. Before my exams started I began to lack motivation for my blog and ended up taking a massive break. I had a look around at some other people's blog and decided my own plan of action. I then realised that I should be blogging for me and doing what's I love. Now I've achieved what I always wanted and am much more enthusiastic about my blog, that shows in my posts. If you ever want to chat, you know where to find me! Xx

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    1. Thank you so much, Sophie! I appreciate it x

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  3. This was written so beautifully, it is very relatable, sending you all my love! xx

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  4. Hi, blogging is an extra addition to many o people's life's that we squeeze in when we can, great that you focussed on those exams. Hope you get back into blogging soon when you feel its right and isnspired to do so.

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    1. Thank you! I am trying to ease myself in slowly, I don't want to force anything.

      Rachel x

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